A mess a paint can become something much bigger.

So Monday workshop I started of a little bummed that I bought all the wrong things, and then got a little scared that I wasn't going to paint right (if there is really such thing). I tend to have no self confidence in my art, or anything in general. These paintings remind me of what my English teacher told me when she saw me doodling in class, she said, "Sketches are so cool to me because it started out looking like a bunch of lines but then turns into something recognizable.", of course this isn't sketching, its paint, but I feel like it has the same idea to it. After getting more comfortable with the paint, I started getting somewhere, somewhere where it looks somewhat human. Although it looked more like Elvis than Clint Eastwood, I am pleased with it, considering it was my first time trying this.

Jim Bonnie

While eating during STAC Wednesday, I kept hearing good things about Jim Bonnie, I even heard that people cried last time. I thought they were joking but when I found out that  it was true, I got a bit scared and nervous, because I don't like people seeing me cry. When we met Jim Bonnie, he seem confident and comfortable, something I'm not. I was a little intimidated. He was explaining how we are surrounded by zombies, draining our energy, and how we have to stop having our energy drained. Just walking through any hallway at Herricks you can see zombies, everywhere. Then he had us lie down and told us to bring back the child in us, when I closed my eyes a pictured something bizarre, possibly scary, or warped. I pictured myself when I was little smiling, but then gets punched in the back, little me falling to the ground laying there almost looking dead, but growing and transforming into what I look like now. Creepy. Afterwards Mr. Bonnie had is yell phrases like "OUTTA MY WAY!" "DON'T PICK ON ME!" "SLIMEBALL!" and yell no to things he told us we couldn't do. Doing that was like releasing any negative energy I had, giving me a fresh start with myself. I felt stronger and that nothing in my way could stop me. I felt like I could look anyone in the eyes and take them down. Later on we paired up, I was with Jon and we did an improv where he was a teacher upset with me a rebellious student. Jon looked like he wasn't having the best day so I felt bad acting like a bratty student. It was fun, considering I don't improv often (at least in STAC that is). Just working with Jim Bonnie one day was thrilling so I'm excited for the next workshop!

I should check my email more often.

Very sorry it is late, I haven't checked my email in days. The workshop we started monday was very interesting to me because normally I draw to draw, but i don't think I have ever drawn to paint. I kinda excited paint it, but working in just pencil was an interesting process, I don't draw in shapes a lot, so this is something I hope to use more in the future. I think I will get the good paintbrushes this weekend, along with the oil based paint(?).
I also do remember just with my sketches I kinda squint to see if it looks somewhat photographic. I feel so bad this is so short, its 6AM and I'm getting ready for school(will add more later.)!

Avery Milton...

I can not decide whether I like his art or not. Some of it was good, but some of it looked like something I made in art class in the first grade, so I did not think of that as a positive thing, but that just may be me. The one I liked the most was the chicken one, I liked how he used scratches and marks to his painting (chicken scratch?). I don't think I will form a definite opinion anytime soon, but he certainly isn't my favorite artist.

I like The Prisoner episode today, I think it is because like Allison said, the change in scenery makes it more interesting, I think thats also why I like episodes when he 'escapes' for some short amount of time before getting thrown back to the village. Number 8 was great, another thing that convinces me that some psychos are lovable. I think the best was his face when he had the blood dripping from his lip and that insane grin.